Tomorrow wont come for those without xxxx

 

I dont know how to speak my truths

 

Today I made a mistake

Today I made a mistake
I googled old friends
People once part of my life
And I saw how they trive

One a gold smith by 24
his own label, told my monitor
Newspaper articles about prodigy youth
And I thought, man look how he grew

Another one's business photos,
not a trace of inseurity in those
look at him smiling successional
he's now an IT professional.

Looking back, they both were kinda like me
albeit wonderful beings, a tad bit mentally wee
But look at them go, how they've beautifully grown
And now look at me, the never-changing moron.

How hard they must've being working
how deep they must've being searching
how strict they must've been
How much they must've seen

I would like to listen
to their aquired wisdom
what the world looks to them now
and what those pictures do not show

But what would I have to offer
I'm but a faceless gofer
a victim of my very own mess
checkmate in my own game of chess.

Because I cant do anything but cry
because mostly I dont even try
because somewhere along the line
I forgot which fight is mine.

Today I made a mistake
I compared myself to once-friends
and I forgot completely
to meet myself. Me.

Today I made a mistake
I googled old friends
but instead of being proud of their growth
I just moved to self-pity lake and dove.

I am so sorry.
Keep going, wonderful people

Geister

Mein Herz
Der Geist des Vergangenen
Noch trunken, noch nicht bereit 

Mein Hirn
Der Geist der Gegenwart
Im Hier und Jetzt

Meine Seele
Der Geist der Zukunft
Strebend, offen, bereit. 

Mein Geist
Der Geist in mir
Alle drei in Teilen
Ein Ganzes.
Ich.