Happiness of the void

Oh joy oh soul,
oh human being,
dear friend, I just
learned about this feeling.

This emotion I
am drowning in,
this joy, this pain to
exploding akin

I just learned that
oh, how great,
I am able to
communicate.

To let you know I
am, I feel,
I'm present though
locked with a seal

Trapped in gold in
silvery fear,
to show you my
world in here.

How life and death are
oh so close,
how I didn't
got the choice.

How everything, oh-
so sudden,
loses hope, gets
muddy rotten.

How suddenly I
scream with joy,
the dreading feel
forms forgotten.

Look, oh my
the world I'm in,
won't let me lose-
but neither - win.

I'm trapped in void's happiness.