Fragment of a caleidoscope

I long to be
more
better
even better
yet here I am
a sorry jester
just me

Scarily
simple
human
oh-so human
ah, I’m sorry
I’m just a fool, man
just me

Bear with me
please
longer
just a bit longer
I can’t come back stronger
I’m just me

I don’t quite
belong
here
I’m here, though
I’m just a weirdo
just me

Whatever I yearn for
is it me?
it’s not me
I wish I’d come and see
for myself
I’m just me.